Writing

I Realize….

Realize that I will never be enough for you. You always make it so clear that you would rather be with everyone else but me. I wonder why I’m even here. Why did you bring me here? Why do you keep me? I see the fire in your eyes. This is the kind of fire that burns right through the soul and leaves permanent scars. It hurts me when you disappear for days without calling. It hurts me when you come back laughing, stumbling, holding the hand of someone you barely know. You look at him with joyful eyes, the same eyes that change like that of a snake when they rest upon me sitting, waiting for you. Eyes that sting and tell me to disappear. I do as I’m told by those dark eyes before the flames of your words hit me.

I realize that I may not be what you wanted but I am here nonetheless.

I realize that you may never understand the emptiness you placed in my world.

I realize that you may never change your snake skin.

I realize that in unexplainable ways, you enjoy the attention of slithering around in the weight of the old.

What you should realize is that while you never gave me what I wanted most, what I needed to feel safe, is something I found all on my own. I realize now that more beauty came from all the darkness you shoved in my heart. This darkness was never who I was. It shaped me into someone stronger than you. Someone who could open their eyes and see the beautiful wonders of the world.

I realize that I am the brightest star in my minds galaxy and I am okay with that.

 

 

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Writing

A Choice

Daring

The world will always seem too big.

Too big to understand, too big to see with two eyes, and far too big to explore in one lifetime.

Choose to be different from the rest. People are moving too fast to enjoy the beauty around them. Feeling the energy from the earth and slowing down is daring.

People are scared of missing out and are always running through life.

So, I say slow it down. Enjoy the wonders of the world. Having this one life to live doesn’t mean we should rush through it. It means that we need to enjoy it that much more.

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Life

Parachutes

Always Something There to Remind Me

In response to The Daily Post’s writing prompt: “Always Something There to Remind Me.”

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I’ve always loved Coldplay and whenever I hear any track from Parachutes, it sends me back to about eight years ago when I had zero responsibilities, laying in my bed in my first place. I was twenty-one years old and it was a great summer. All I did was have fun with friends, go to work, go home and completely get lost in a trance to this CD and repeat! 🙂
Now, although it was fun, I wouldn’t go back to that time LOL but this will always be one of my favorite albums 🙂

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Life

Simply, Me

In response to The Daily Post’s writing prompt: “All About Me.

All About Me

Honestly, it didn’t take too much thought in naming my blog. I simply wanted to plaster my name at the top because my blog represents all the things I love and enjoy sharing! My name is something I take much pride in because I married  the absolute love of my life and I carry my husbands name with more joy than I could possibly explain. I am simply unapologetically, Stephanie Cardozo 😉